Far more upsetting than any nightmare
Are the dreams in which you haunt me
Our wrecked love rekindled and felt so deeply
Even as I awaken
I feel it
Do you
Our lips having met once more
Satisfaction that cannot be measured
On some ethereal plane that vanishes
And begins to fade from memory
Once I’ve returned to waking life
No matter how tightly I hold onto it
And my soul aches
God, how it aches
A cavernous and vast emptiness
Of which I had become accustomed to
Has now been brought back to light
And I ache for your closeness
My abuser
My subconscious mind taunts
I replay it again and again
An addiction to an emotion
That my waking life fails to provide
The tingle of lust
The warmth of familiar love
I replay it to taste it
Just once more
And again
And again
And again
And again
Before it vanishes.
SMC
